I found this extremely touching coming out video on YouTube. I was so sad that some gays got murdered or got beaten up to death due to being homosexual.
I was tearing by the end. Yes, now you know I wear my heart on my sleeve :P
If I ever decide to come out to my parents I'll use it....in another lifetime..(but then again we never know how things might turn out *wink*)
So here's the link and a box of tissues for ya! :P Enjoy!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=0kfqZaRR8u4
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Friday, December 29, 2006
(Oh, just to clarify, I am not living in Saudi right now. I am overseas, somewhere in Asia.)
You know what sucks?
Not having GAYDAR.
Seriously! So many damn gay blogs in this country of mine and I cannot even tell the gays from the straights. I have not found any lesbian blogs unfortunately, but that's beside the point! Aren't gay guys supposed to be over-the-top extravagant?
It's seriously just me. My friends can always point out a transsexual or an out-out gay, but I usually give them the benefit of the doubt and assume that's their style. Not even assume, actually, but my mind doesn't automatically scream 'GAY ALERT! GAY ALERT!' when I see a guy that might fit the label.
It's not faaaaaair! I'm gay, sorta, I should have gaydar! Not you!!!! *goes off and sulks*
You know what sucks?
Not having GAYDAR.
Seriously! So many damn gay blogs in this country of mine and I cannot even tell the gays from the straights. I have not found any lesbian blogs unfortunately, but that's beside the point! Aren't gay guys supposed to be over-the-top extravagant?
It's seriously just me. My friends can always point out a transsexual or an out-out gay, but I usually give them the benefit of the doubt and assume that's their style. Not even assume, actually, but my mind doesn't automatically scream 'GAY ALERT! GAY ALERT!' when I see a guy that might fit the label.
It's not faaaaaair! I'm gay, sorta, I should have gaydar! Not you!!!! *goes off and sulks*
Thursday, December 28, 2006
I was going to blog about dykey related issues, but that has been knocked out of me after the news of the Taiwan earthquake. That, plus the fact that my blogging will be kinda on-and-off as my internet provider fixes the line. So many natural disasters in the space of a month. May God be with those who have been affected.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Ellen Degeneres's Coming Out Interview With Oprah
Ellen is just GREAT! Enjoy! It won't upload so here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zQWJ7XI9aM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zQWJ7XI9aM
Blogger, unspam this blog already! I guess we will have to wait until after Christmas since everyone's (the base of blogger) celebrating. Well Happy Eid to all those who celebrate it. And Marry Christmas to all those who celebrate it :D
It's very hard being a closet lesbian in Saudi. There might be groups of girls, but I don’t know any one of them. I go to a homophobic school. I don't have any connections to anything going on here.
I can't be out, every closeted person knows how it feels and how crushing sometimes it is to have to act all the time. I hate it when everyone prays you end up "with the right man". In my head, I hope that I'll end up with the right woman instead. Or (to shut them up) with the right gay man who I will end up having a sham wedding with. (Sham wedding: wedding done between two opposite gendered homosexuals that are not sexually attracted to each other in any way. Purpose: to shut society up, to erase any suspicions, to stop the family nagging and to be away from home were you could be a little freer with whom you are with) You can see I have given a lot of thought to this. One problem though, how will I find an honest gay guy here? And a friend once told me if anything go for the queens not the king. That I will do, it will be like having a best friend for life. (yes, I tend to be idealistic)
That said, I would go on the internet and there are so many straight desperate men who are so desperate they act as lesbian women. Why would I go on the internet then? I am unable to find another closeted one face to face (not necessarily to be girl friends, just to know and talk with someone like you. It helps. Dykalicious is just somewhere else on the globe, which also helps) Being alone in the closet where you live is hard. So I go online, and damnit! Why do these men do that? And it's so sad to say that most Arab "lesbians" in any chat rooms are men! It's unbelievable. I mean would you find straight women going to gay chat rooms, posing as a gay man and towards the end of conversation ask "so, how come you don't like girls??" err NO! It's just sad really. I guess its part of the male "forbidden things are the best and I gotta try them out" sensibility. It seems that women (all) are victims of a lot of things as a result of certain ways of thinking. This turned out as rant more than anything else :P
Well, take care of yourselves!
It's very hard being a closet lesbian in Saudi. There might be groups of girls, but I don’t know any one of them. I go to a homophobic school. I don't have any connections to anything going on here.
I can't be out, every closeted person knows how it feels and how crushing sometimes it is to have to act all the time. I hate it when everyone prays you end up "with the right man". In my head, I hope that I'll end up with the right woman instead. Or (to shut them up) with the right gay man who I will end up having a sham wedding with. (Sham wedding: wedding done between two opposite gendered homosexuals that are not sexually attracted to each other in any way. Purpose: to shut society up, to erase any suspicions, to stop the family nagging and to be away from home were you could be a little freer with whom you are with) You can see I have given a lot of thought to this. One problem though, how will I find an honest gay guy here? And a friend once told me if anything go for the queens not the king. That I will do, it will be like having a best friend for life. (yes, I tend to be idealistic)
That said, I would go on the internet and there are so many straight desperate men who are so desperate they act as lesbian women. Why would I go on the internet then? I am unable to find another closeted one face to face (not necessarily to be girl friends, just to know and talk with someone like you. It helps. Dykalicious is just somewhere else on the globe, which also helps) Being alone in the closet where you live is hard. So I go online, and damnit! Why do these men do that? And it's so sad to say that most Arab "lesbians" in any chat rooms are men! It's unbelievable. I mean would you find straight women going to gay chat rooms, posing as a gay man and towards the end of conversation ask "so, how come you don't like girls??" err NO! It's just sad really. I guess its part of the male "forbidden things are the best and I gotta try them out" sensibility. It seems that women (all) are victims of a lot of things as a result of certain ways of thinking. This turned out as rant more than anything else :P
Well, take care of yourselves!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Since my beloved partner in crime has already posted, I guess I should too.
YO people! I'm pretty new to the blogosphere, so I'd better introduce myself. I'll use dykeinsaudi's format because I suck at introductions.
Yes well little things about me (blatant plagiarism I know lol!)
- I am 16 too, but dykeinsaudi is older than me
- I'm also a lesbian, figured that out after a LOT of confusion...long story
-My butt is nice and toasty thanks to my lover's warm hands *wink wink*
-I'm not Saudi, neither am I Arab. I'm a mixed Asian chick brought up in a Western country till I was 11, whose family then migrated to the holy land of Saudi Arabia to peacefully practice their religion amongst millions of fellow Muslims who love and respect us and treat us as equals.
...
*bursts out laughing*
That's the dream, isn't it?
Anyways, this blog was made for me and my buddy to wax poetic about our daily lives, adventures, blah blah blah. The only place where we can be open about these things is on this blog, so be ready for some intense navel-lint excavation (don't worry, I always wash my hands afterwards). Life in Saudi is hard enough without having to keep so many secrets locked up in our beautiful rainbow closet.
Oops. My lover is stirring. My bed is creaking for me to come caress it's soft, cottony exterior. Time to go!
YO people! I'm pretty new to the blogosphere, so I'd better introduce myself. I'll use dykeinsaudi's format because I suck at introductions.
Yes well little things about me (blatant plagiarism I know lol!)
- I am 16 too, but dykeinsaudi is older than me
- I'm also a lesbian, figured that out after a LOT of confusion...long story
-My butt is nice and toasty thanks to my lover's warm hands *wink wink*
-I'm not Saudi, neither am I Arab. I'm a mixed Asian chick brought up in a Western country till I was 11, whose family then migrated to the holy land of Saudi Arabia to peacefully practice their religion amongst millions of fellow Muslims who love and respect us and treat us as equals.
...
*bursts out laughing*
That's the dream, isn't it?
Anyways, this blog was made for me and my buddy to wax poetic about our daily lives, adventures, blah blah blah. The only place where we can be open about these things is on this blog, so be ready for some intense navel-lint excavation (don't worry, I always wash my hands afterwards). Life in Saudi is hard enough without having to keep so many secrets locked up in our beautiful rainbow closet.
Oops. My lover is stirring. My bed is creaking for me to come caress it's soft, cottony exterior. Time to go!
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